the fight for authenticity

last year i realized that i was hanging onto the idea that if i am who i am fully and freely then i will hurt

people because there is just something so invasive and over the top about who i am that i need to suppress..it took me a long time to be ready to see that i was even thinking that.. and once i could say it out loud

“if i am who i am i will intrinsically hurt people”

i could see it for the lie it is and reject it. i was ready.

i have to fight with myself still- from filtering myself. Just doing what i think others want or expect from me-

but now that i know that this is the battle i am in, i can fight. i can fight for more freedom and authenticity.

if you are who you are, what could happen?

Favorite Film Of All Time

i just watched “the human experience” on netflix yesterday and it is my favorite of all time check it out at Grassroots Films.

Synopsis

From Grassroots Films of Brooklyn, New York comes THE HUMAN EXPERIENCE – the story of a band of brothers who travel the world in search of the answers to the burning questions: Who am I? Who is Man? Why do we search for meaning? Their journey brings them into the middle of the lives of the homeless on the streets of New York City, the orphans and disabled children of Peru, and the abandoned lepers in the forests of Ghana, Africa. What the young men discover changes them forever. Through one on one interviews and real life encounters, the brothers are awakened to the beauty of the human person and the resilience of the human spirit.